Every year I think about making a list of resolutions, but then I don’t because my brain convinces me that there is no point. That little voice in my head tells me I won’t complete them. The little voice in my head is very negative and has been for quite some time. I want to change that, but I’m not sure how. Last year I started out the year so well and it ended badly. I was really let down and bothered that I couldn’t continue the progress I had made. I had started walking a couple of times a week and got to walking almost everyday. I completed three 5K walks, one of them timed and I did well. Then that exhaustion stepped in and took over. I tried to fight it, but I only got more exhausted the more I tried to continue to exercise. The exhaustion lasted so long, I got depressed. From there I spun out. I am trying to climb out of that depression now, but it’s hard. So here I am now debating making resolutions, wondering if making them would be good, you know give me something to work towards, or if they would just send me spiraling down again. I have been thinking about this a lot. Probably overthinking it as usual. So today, I am making the decision to go ahead and do it. I’m going to make that list.
My 2016 Resolutions:
- Start walking again – I need to start out slow and get back to where I was
- Complete at least five 5K walks – I will try and do one every 2 months after February
- Read 50 books – try to start actual reading again, not just listening to audiobooks
- Continue coloring for stress – really helps…if you haven’t tried it, find a coloring book that really interests you and go for it.
- Start my own business this year and quit my job – I have been thinking about this for the past 2 years and it has come time to put up or shut up
- Write a blog entry at least 3 times a week – I know I suck at writing, but writing is a stress relief too, so hopefully I will get better with time
- Cook more and eat out less – This past 6 months of being exhausted has forced me to eat out more often. I love to cook. I love trying new recipes. I must make time to cook. I am soooooooooooooooo tired of take out.
I’ll stop with 7. Seven has always been a lucky number. I hope it is for me. It’s not going to be easy and I know I have to put in the willpower and the energy to make this happen and not just depend on luck. I must also continue the CPAP machine at night to help with the exhaustion. I’m getting too old to not try or I’m not going to get much older. I have found a lot to live for, so here’s to the reboot. Cross your fingers for me!